James T. Green is a conceptual artist, radio producer, writer, and educator from Chicago, Illinois, and now in Brooklyn, New York.

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17: A Window of Opportunity

One of the biggest fighters I know, and one of my best friends, is in the hospital right now fighting for his life--Brian Hastings. We've been by his side since Saturday, and the cancer we thought he beat back in January of last year came back and attacked him in ways none of us expected. His organs are failing but his heart is still strong. I don't know how else to say but he can be gone at any minute.

Aside from all the tears I've been fighting for a friend that has changed me for as long as I can remember, one thing that always stands out is his positive spirit. He always keeps an outlook towards the glass half full, and that's something that can be carried on--which I hope is something you can apply in your day to day as well.

One of the last text messages I received from him was below. Even in something so seemingly fleeting as missed plans, his positive spirit shines through.

"Also, don't think just bc we didn't hang out yesterday means the window of op was missed. This demands rescheduling and it's situations like these that serve as reminders as to how we have to make more time for that sort of stuff!! :)"

Life is short to be cynical. Tell your loved ones that you love them and hug them when you feel it. Brian, you've taught me that, and I hope you all remember that too. While we did make those plans that resulted in a memorable night, I'm happy to know that the last, conscious, words you said to me were "I love you" and the last words I said to you were "I love you too, and text us when you make it home safe." 

I'll be back next week with your incredibly thoughtful responses from last week's letter. Keep us in your thoughts, and thank you for reading and sticking around. He feels every bit of your love and support.


James T. Green